... that as a writer, I barely ever have time to write for leisure.
I've had a lot on my mind lately. Some of it is school related, while other things stem from the personal aspect that I referred to in the post previous to this. Some experiences over the past few months have left me thinking and longing to reevaluate a few areas in my life.
For one thing, I am trying to appreciate where I am in time and place. I want to keep remembering that life is about the journey, not the destination. I've realized that it's so easy to get caught up in where I want to get to, that I tend to forget where I am. I keep telling myself that there's certain things that are out of my control and that there's only so much I can do without losing it. And this is a fact. I'm realizing quickly that I can't be in control of all the outcomes in my life (as much as I'd like to). It really does seem as though some things are just predetermined, and we just have to play along. This is because no matter how hard we fight for something, sometimes, it's just not destined to be ours.
I've also been talking to a very good friend of mine lately, about some experiences she's been having in the guy department. Though I tend to be an idealist, I must acknowledge that I haven't been too optimistic lately. But I thought, without a doubt, that what she shared with this guy was something special... and I guess I was wrong.
Sometimes even Peter Pan masquerades as a grown man, though he is fully aware that he wants to stay a boy forever. To this friend, please remember, you're worthy of a man who loves you just the way you are, no questions asked and no mind games required. You don't need Peter Pan, and you certainly don't deserve to be second to anyone else. I hope you always remember that. Also, I've shared this with you already, but just in case... no one can make you feel inferior without your consent...
Finally, I'd like to ask some (small few) people in my life who tend to call themselves my friends (you know who you are), please--without doing me any favours--please give me a little more credit than you do. I think I deserve that much.
four more weeks.